Somebody, anybody, I need someone to cry with.

[layne67]

Anyone here has read elohvee's We Were Twenty? There's like, a gazillion comments to her fic there, surely there's someone on my flist who has read it?

Shinta, Monty, Arabia, Allyson? Anybody? Please? I'm a wreck here. Read that story last night. Stayed up the whole night because I simply couldn't stop and yeah, I'm crying right now.

Do go read if you haven't already. It's utterly and totally ... sublime. Angst and schmoop aplenty. Extreme angst and extreme schmoop, I should say.

Summary : Sam is badly injured, and hunting is no longer an option for him. They choose to stay at a small suburbia in Virginia. Dean gets a job at the local garage while Sam continues with his studies, eventually becoming a lawyer. He convinces Dean to go to night classes and study to become a teacher, because yeah, Dean is good with kids.

But not all is domestic bliss for them. The call to hunt is strong, and Dean starts hunting alone, despite Sam's protests. And Dean, well, he has his own insecurities, too, because he couldn't really believe that what they have now is enough for Sam, and he's still thinking that Sam's going to leave.

It's every small suburban town. Every place Sam's turned wistful and dewy-eyed, every place Dean's scoffed. It slides past the window at the speed limit. A church and a grocer's and an auto shop. A local nutjob psychic and an animal hospital.

Dean pulls down a smaller street by the library. Flat little suburban homes, a place for the young, new families and frail little cat ladies, for the stooped old men who scream at the kids crossing their lawns.

Sam leans into the window. Presses his nose to the glass like a little kid. He says, "Dean?"

Dean flexes his hand on the gearshift. Without purpose, just because. It's a nervous tic he's always had. He sighs and shakes his head. "Shut up, Sammy."

Comments

[montmorency.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

The problem is, I looked at that one and it said something about "the day he buried his brother" and I simply cannot DO deathfic!!!!!!!!!! I have a horrible fear of it. But I want to be there for you, since you after all were there for me when I was weeping over As Meat Loves Salt. *wibbles*

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Oh baby, they had years together before that happened, and what they had was worth the ending. Well, almost. I'm still all over the place now.

*sniffles*

[montmorency.livejournal.com]

*wavers* But STILL.... death. :(

I've read other stories by that author, and she is very talented. Or at any rate the name is familiar. Well, maybe (only for you) I'll give it a go! Now if only the type weren't so small and insufficiently contrasty.

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Here's an incentive. Dean first day as a teacher and Sam's already a lawyer.

After Labor Day, Dean takes charge of a group of twenty-four eight-years-olds.

The first morning, Sam watches him from the kitchen table with reams of review papers and piles of book. Court cases, constitutional amendments. Dean drinks his coffee and contemplates his brother. "Criminal law was a stupid idea, Sammy."

"It'll be useful once you get sued for child abuse."

"I will not get—"

"Dean, listen to me now. No stories about the car or hunting. No AC/DC, no Zeppelin—none of your usual music. No looking up porn during naptime. You get one recess period, not six. And if they ask you to show them how to throw knives, you say—"

Dean frowns. "Should've traded you for cigarettes when I had the chance."

"You don't give up true love for a pack of smokes, Dean. Just isn't right."

This is my first elohvee's fic. God, to think that I could have easily missed this!

[montmorency.livejournal.com]

That's adorable! One recess period, not six. Poor Dean. Well, O-kay, for YOU only. *grumbles* Already reading, actually. But not looking forward to getting my heart broken!

[layne67.livejournal.com]

I'll be around today. Printing this now for a reread. Then we'll cry together, yeah?

[montmorency.livejournal.com]

Of course! But it's so long, I doubt I'll be able to stay awake for the whole thing. I'm already a bit sleepy, probably because of waking up too early this morning and then doing yard work.

Meanwhile I'll get myself prepared for a good cry. :( SAMMY!!!! :(

[melyanna-65.livejournal.com]

*passes tissues*

You know, about fanfic I'm only into Frodo / Sam slash, but it's incredible how fanfics can make you cry like a fountain, sometimes ...

*hugs*

[layne67.livejournal.com]

*accepts tissues gratefully*

This is a death-fic omg that's why it's so very sad!

[allysonsedai.livejournal.com]

I haven't read it... now I'm scared to! Not sure if I can handle crying today...

Oh, who am I kidding?

*goes off to read*

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Have a box of tissues ready! God, I love that fic.

[arabia764.livejournal.com]

I took it on holiday with me.

I'd saw the character death warning but I forgot. I read the end sitting round my brother-in-law's pool at a big family BBQ and balled my eyes out. Try explaining that one!

I loved it, loved the tone and feel of of. Loved it.

[layne67.livejournal.com]

I'm alright now. But the first couple of hours yesterday was baaad, I kept thinking "no no no no".

I thought Dean was going to die of brain tumour or something when he stared having those headaches. Omg Dean in glasses. And Sam with a cane. Sexy ...

Teacher!Dean is so, so adorable. I kept thinking of teacher!Elijah in 'Damaged'. Soooo cute!

By the way, remember 'For the End of My Broken Heart'. The sequel should be posted anytime soon. Or maybe it has been posted already, I haven't checked my flist yet. The author put up a few snippets and omg they're good. Expect to see lots of jealous!Sam :DD

[arabia764.livejournal.com]

I got really into that fic, I could picture their little flat, hear Dean at school, see him worrying over Sam but trying not to show it... so much lovely detail.

I wasn't ready for the ending, I simply didn't see it coming and was really rocked. This is a fic I will keep.

Have you read this?

http://samdean.archive.nu/viewstory.php?sid=757&textsize=0&chapter=1

alchemilia recced to to me. It's hooker Dean, but not really. It needs a damned good beta but I loved it.

[layne67.livejournal.com]

No, I haven't read it! Thanks, love. Just can't get enough of rentboy!Dean *pervs*

[arabia764.livejournal.com]

Let me know what you think and, oh, if you find anymore good rentboys ones (Sam or Dean) Let me know!

:-)

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Somebody rec'd me this. I haven't read it yet but I've read some of the author's other fics and she's good.

http://winterlive.livejournal.com/185207.html

And this is hooker!Jensen. It's blindingly HOT!!!!

http://ze-pink-lady.livejournal.com/tag/basketball!au

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Just finished reading it and it has an interesting storyline. I get what you mean, though, about it needing a good beta. But, oh, there're so many angsty moments in it, moments that made you ache and all that. Hee, but there's this tiny thing that rankled a bit, Sam not wanting people to call him Sammy, it's a bit repetitive after a while and hey, canon!Sam doesn't mind Dean calling him Sammy! Yeah, yeah, I have this *huge* Sammy-kink ( among other things ) and my knees turn to jelly each time Dean calls him Sammy :DD

I forgot to rec you this the other day, it's felisblanco's Normal!Verse (http://felisblanco.livejournal.com/tag/normal%21verse") and it has prostitute!Dean in it.

[arabia764.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about Dean calling Sam, Sammy. It turns my ladies bits inside out and makes me melt something rotten. That is how Dean really feels about his Sam!

I tried to check out the fic but the link doesn't appear to work, I keep getting an error message.

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Here's the author's whole list. Scroll down for the normal!verse

http://felisblanco.livejournal.com/395007.html

And while at it, you might want to check this verse as well :)

http://felisblanco.livejournal.com/470865.html

[i-o-r-h-a-e-l.livejournal.com]

Nope, I haven't seen it. Thanks for the link!

[layne67.livejournal.com]

It's a very beautiful story, Shinta. Don't let that death thing put you off, because that comes way, way at the end, and the years that they had together were so very beautiful! * melts melts melts*

You'd see Dean with glasses in the story and what could be sexier than that?

[i-o-r-h-a-e-l.livejournal.com]

Death thing won't put me off, but makes me hard, literally hard to breath. :)

I'll try.

Btw, perhaps you have a saved file of the fic? (It's too long to upload the pages and copy and paste. Bwahahahaha.)

[layne67.livejournal.com]

but makes me hard

LOL

Check your mail inbox :)

[i-o-r-h-a-e-l.livejournal.com]

Oh, you! :D

And it was supposed to be hard to breathe, too.

^__^