This story broke me in more ways than one.

[layne67]

Want to know how it feels like to have your heart ripped out and shredded into millions of pieces? Read this then.

When It's Over by wynter_rebel.

I hesitated to read this at first, not because it's gen, there're lots of gen fics that I read and love, but because of the whole set-up of the story. Not my usual SamandDean, and I'd usually steer clear from this type of fics. In fact I did stop after the first chapter, but I couldn't stop thinking about it. And it's higly rec'd by someone. So.

Finished the whole thing this morning. And I couldn't. Stop. Crying. The author said to bring tissues. Towels are more like it. Huge and fluffy ones, to soak up all the tears that I *guarantee* that you'll shed throughout the story. Especially in the last two chapters. I've never cried this hard reading a story before. Kind of hate the author a little for writing it.

Summary: After a horrible accident, Sam and Dean have to relearn what it is to be a family.

Yeah, it's Dean whummpage right from the word go. And oh, I wanted so badly to hate Sam in this story, but I couldn't. Because at the end of the day, you have to live your own dreams, your own life, and not someone else's. No matter how much you love that person.

A love story, not the Wincesty kind, but a love story all the same. And sometimes, sometimes that is the best kind.

That’s the reason he was okay with this. His whole life, the only thing he’d ever cared about more than life itself was the notion that he needed to take care of Sammy. He knew that Sam was okay and that he would always be okay. Because he’d gotten what he wanted. There was nothing more Dean could offer him.

With that thought, Dean felt his body relax in a way it hadn’t done in years. Not just an untensing of muscles. It was an untensing of duty, of fear, of watchfulness. It was a release of worry. It was a resignation of a post he’d been perched on, guarding since he was four years old. And Dean had never felt so calm, so peaceful in all his life. It was okay. The job was done and he could relax.

And to pour salt over the wound, so to speak, this song was played on the car radio while I was driving to work. Cue for more tears.'Kenangan Terindah', The Sweetest Memory - by Samson. When what was fated for me, is the best for you, you'll be the sweetest memory of my life. I know. Cheese with a capital C. Stop rolling your eyes.

Oh I need to cry with someone over this. Anyone? Please?

And munibunny. You probably shouldn't read this story.

Comments

[ala-tariel.livejournal.com]

Someone died in the story? Who was it?

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Read the first para. You'd know who that would be.

*cries again*

I really bawled my heart out this morning. I went to work with puffy eyes and a red nose :(

[layne67.livejournal.com]

Here it is :

There was a pop, a twinge of pain, and then it was over. Just like that. No spectacular final battle, no going out in a blaze of glory, no heroic last stand to celebrate the finale of the life he knew. Just a pop. Then a jerk. And Dean Winchester, the hunter, was done. Done with heroism, done with chivalry, done with hunting, done with everything. And the moment he stared down at his toes and watched as they refused to move, refused to twitch, refused to do anything but sit still and taunt him, he began wondering which gun would leave the least mess of blood and brain matter when he put it in his mouth and pulled the trigger. Because Dean was many things, but parapalygic wasn't one of them.

[ala-tariel.livejournal.com]

Oh no! This story will breaks Shinta's heart! *sniffs*

[layne67.livejournal.com]

But not yours? Hmmm. I dare you to read this and not cry ;D

[ala-tariel.livejournal.com]

I guess that's why I won't read a deathfic. So, I won't cry. :))

[layne67.livejournal.com]

But I wish you would ... it's a great story, albeit a sad one :)

[ala-tariel.livejournal.com]

Have you read this story yet (click on the link). Until today, it's the only deathfic I've ever read. And Shinta just cried the whole nine yards after reading it and I was just grinning like an idiot. :))

http://kalyw.livejournal.com/166458.html

[layne67.livejournal.com]

No, I haven't.

*bookmarks*

I've got to give myself a bit of a time to recover from that fic, but I will read it! Thank you, dear :))

Btw, if your sis did decide to read that fic I rec, you have to be there for her. She's going to be so heartbroken. I don't think she knows that it's a death!fic.

[ala-tariel.livejournal.com]

Oh no! That won't be a good thing. Will be puffy eyes in the morning. *grins*

BTW, I didn't tell her either about the story -- the one I gave the link to you -- that it's a deathfic. Wow, you should see her after she read it. My mom asked her if she's catching cold or something because she had this runny nose. Hahahahahaha

And, you are welcome. :)) Happy reading!